Sunday, 24 May 2015

Road Blocks. 24.05.15

I've just returned from a lovely road trip: me, two dogs, one van, and the open road. No official campsites, as much coastline as we could manage, and, as we were Up Norf, no plans beyond chasing the sunshine. To me that's the height of luxury. I've got shelter and I've got (relative) safety and I've got freedom and I've got all the time in the world and I've got my pack about me. What more could I wish for? How could life be better?

Things were much harder in the good/bad old days. Travelling the open road on foot, or by public transport, is infinitely more dicey. Unless you pack up with somebody who can be relied upon to watch your back, you can never truly rest. Frankly, vanning it is so comfortable that it seems like cheating. At the same time, I remain aware of the fact that there are a number of charities working hard to ensure that nobody has to live like that. It's not everyone's cup of tea. It would also not be my cup of tea in the middle of winter (though surely that's why they made roads that point south) or if I was sick or injured. Nonetheless, I love it so much that I have to keep reminding myself that it's not precisely the norm. More than that, I have to remind myself that normal people think it's odd and scary. "You're doing what? On your own?!"

Thing is, for me that kind of situation is comfortable (and comforting, too) because I've done it so much that I know how to do it. Even though the opportunities these days are sorely infrequent, every time I hit the road I find myself slipping into my road mode. I look at places, people, and situations in a completely different way. My focus is different, because my priorities are different. I catch myself dressing and behaving differently, aiming for a greater  level of insignificancy (it's as good as invisibility for making people ignore you, and it doesn't interfere with crossing the road). I don't have to think about shifting gears; I've operate in this mode so often and for so long that the switch happens automatically. Really, it feels like going home.

I find that hard to explain to people because for me it's all just there, and for them it's completely foreign. If I put it into words, it either comes out sounding ridiculously obvious or woo-woo esoteric. Either way, I worry I'm not presenting a detailed enough picture. How do I know what they don't know? What if I miss out something important, and get them hurt? 


I took Vikings: a History by Neil Oliver to read on my trip. It was a good little read, and very appropriate given the places I was visiting. One point in the book, though, gave me a wtf moment. Oliver is tripping out over the fact that he got to spend a night in a reconstruction building. He had only a fire for heating! He had to go to sleep in his clothes! Without a mattress! And he found out that although the night was cosysnug, the morning was sharp and uncomfortable!


And I'm like, DUH. So much duh.

How does anyone get to adult age without knowing that? I mean, I understand most people don't spend any time sleeping on the streets (though it still seems kinda odd), or live in houses without automated heating, but surely at least they go camping? How can anyone end up thinking that it's a big deal to spend a single night unplugged from the grid?

I have to remember that, although I absolutely do not feel that my life has been extraordinary, I have done and still do things that are out of the ordinary. I have to remind myself that, although I'm absolutely not extraordinary, I'm definitely not normal. I have to remind myself that there will always be a communication barrier between me and normal people. 

I'm as blind to their experiences and point of view as they are to mine. They haven't done some of the things I have done, so they look at the world in a certain way. I have done those things, so I look at the world in a my own way. If I don't keep that difference in mind, I can completely fail to communicate with them. I can end up missing things out, assuming that they're givens. We can end up talking apples and oranges. And that's even if they care to listen.

It have the same problem talking to people who've never been poor, or totally alone, or so injured or ill that they were incapacitated. "No, you can't just get that, because there is no money." "No, you can't get help, because there is no help to be gotten." "No, you can't just do that, because your body won't let you." "No, you can't just try harder or wish more - that thing you want or need is just NOT THERE as an option." Half the time, even if they grasp it conceptually, I just can't make it real for them. I don't know how to break through the barrier.

(NOTICE: The Bastard is moving. We will shortly be found at https://godsbastard.wordpress.com/ - different platform, same stupid name. Catch you all there.)

Thursday, 21 May 2015

The A-Social Rant. 21.05.15

It's been a week of blasts from the past, which will be blogged about anon. Then I got back to find that on a friend's FB page someone had mentioned "Non-Violent Communication" aka "Compassionate Communication" aka NVC (see here and here). Very briefly, it is a method for de-escalating emotionally charged conflicts and/or stopping repeating scripts. It incorporates the "to de-escalate a situation, the first thing you need to do is de-escalate yourself" a la Marc MacYoung / Rory Miller Conflict Communication - though the similarity ends there. NVC allows you to acknowledge and respect emotions (yours and those of others) without being overpowered by them. It's a way to better manage your monkey brain in order to better get along with people, basically. 

I'd completely forgotten that the whole thing existed; yet, once upon a time, I spent a lot of time (and a fair bit of money, too) trying to incorporate NVC into both my work and my life. And failed, pretty spectacularly.

Looking back, the issue wasn't with my application (as I thought back then) or with NVC per se. It was simply a case of trying to use the wrong tool for that particular job. I thought - innocently or stupidly, take your pick - that because certain situations were taking place in a social setting, with no physical risks to anyone, they must be social conflicts. Nobody was trying to rape me or beat me or sell me or steal my stuff, which is the asocial I was familiar with in the bad old days. We were all in the same boat, part of the same team, trying to achieve the same thing, and everyone had their clothes on, so it must be social, right? 

The major failing in NVC is in its assumptions (listed here), for instance:

All human beings share the same needs.
Yes, maybe. But many if not most people can't tell between their "needs" and their "wants", and some people just want to watch the world burn.

Conflict occurs at the level of strategies, not at the level of needs.
Well, if you take it to the level of 'everyone just wants to be happy' then yes, sure... but some people's one and only strategy for happiness is to destroy other people - as in, the two things, happiness and destruction, are inextricably interlinked. So what are you going to do about that?

All human beings have the capacity for compassion.
Apart from those who don't. There are entire psychology tomes written about them, and many a real-life horror-story. Yes, they might have been made to lack compassion; there may have been some tragic event at any point past their conception that made them into what they are now. However, to pretend that they just don't exist is rather misguided.

We only resort to violence or other actions that do not meet our own or others' needs when we do not recognize more effective strategies for meeting needs.
And that's where I just gotta call bullshit.

That's where Non-Violent Communication and Marc and Rory's Conflict Communication differ most. Though both acknowledge the huge effect on emotions, particularly emotions we're unaware of, on communication going south, ConCom doesn't stop there. ConCom acknowledges the fact that there's a lot more going on, including asocial situations, personality disorders, garden-variety evil, etc. ConCom is, essentially, based on reality. NVC seems to look at an incredibly narrow window of social conflict and try to expand it to cover the entire gamut of social interactions; which I personally class as "wishful thinking".

I don't know why we're so keen in this society to cling to the idiotic notion that there are no monsters, that there is no inherent evil, that everyone would be nice if only they were given the chance to be. I mean, even if that were true (which I personally doubt), how in the name of all that is holy does it help us when the shit hits the fan? Yes, if Jack the Ripper had been loved more by his momma he might have grown up to be a kind and loving person, or at least a better-functioning psychopath... but he wasn't, or he wasn't wired right, or a cart run over his dog, or something went wrong; so he killed. Treating him like a non-killer and trying to connect to his inner child while he's waving a knife in your proximity would go beyond the idiotic into the potentially suicidal. And if you're writing policy, it could cause you to be responsible for the deaths of others.

That doesn't mean that I think NVC is a waste of effort. I think it is a lovely system for managing social conflicts between those who are able and willing to apply it. I heartily recommend it. It will particularly help if you've been the source of some of your issues (not that anyone cares to admit that, but it can be true). If nothing else, it will deepen and improve your internal dialogue, which for many people is a massive deal. 

On the other hand, NVC sucks ass for managing social conflict with people who flat out refuse to play ball, for whatever reason. You can't just throw niceness at people and expect it to change them for the better; you can hope and you can try, but if that's your only strategy, then good luck to you. And if you're the sort of person who looks inside first and foremost to find the cause of problems, not realising this could seriously mess you up.

Worse than that, iyou try and use it to deal with asocial conflict at either extreme of Maslow's hierarchy of need, NVC could get you killed, or worse. I mean, it's bad enough if you try and connect intimately with someone who's trying to rob you, but if you actually manage to connect intimately with a high-functioning, self-actualised sociopath... God help you.

I don't understand what the problem is with looking at a tool like this and admitting that it has limitations. A hammer has limitations. A screwdriver has limitations. Neither are a "bad tool", unless you try to use them for the wrong task it. I think the problem rests with our society's unwillingness to contemplate the darker side of the human soul and the type of conflict it generates. We act as if pretending that it's not there, despite plenty of proof to the contrary, can somehow make it go away. We refuse to admit that the issue exists, as if that made us safer; instead, that makes us unable to switch gears to handle it if the need arises.

The more I look around, the more I realise how so many of the things that make me want to headbutt the wall until my brain leaks out of my ears are essentially social strategies trying to apply specific social cures to problems that are either a) asocial in nature or b) a completely different social dynamic. As Marc MacYoung said:
"Trying to deal with asocial using social is like trying to play chess while in standing in traffic.Trying to use specific social scripts when someone is going after a different goal is like you're playing chess and he's playing checkers.There's a big difference between it not being a game and playing the wrong one."
NVC and countless other current strategies are based on the same sort of fallacy, roughly summarisable as "wouldn't it be nice if everyone was nice". And yes, it bloody well would be; but they are NOT. It may be nature or nurture, we may never know which, but right here and now they are just not nice. And as there isn't a damn thing I can do about that, how about we focus on me not getting raped or beaten or sold or killed or just slowly destroyed emotionally and psychologically as a first priority?

(Oh, if you want a cheap and cheerful intro to NVC, here's the book. If you want to know more about Conflict Communication, here is Rory Miller's version; Marc MacYoung's is in production, and you can follow him here.)

Monday, 11 May 2015

Children’s Crusade. 29.04.15

I’ve been tripping out for the last couple of weeks about “lies-to-children”– those “simplified explanations of technical or complex subjects as a teaching method for children and laypeople” (thank you, Wiki). It all started because Facebook juxtaposed two apparently unrelated yet similar subjects, a child undergoing chemotherapy wearing a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle costume and an argument about whether Hitler was elected.


Both are lies to children. You won’t become a Ninja Turtle by taking your chemo. Hitler wasn’t “elected” as Chancellor, though his rise to power was legal. Yet both are useful in making a complicated idea simple; they can help people deal with an unpleasant situation or approach a sticky subject. Neither prevents further learning. Neither is intended as a deception. 

Both are useful as learning tools. A tiny child can’t possibly understand the complexity of chemotherapy, because his background in biology and chemistry is probably somewhat limited; he just needs to be able to understand that the bad chemicals will make him better. An adult who knows nothing about the Weimar Republic and has learned about the Nazis solely from television or from a single chapter in their history textbooks may lack the interest and motivation to read several screenshots on the subject unless they’ve first been made curious about it.

There is another key element that the Turtles and Hitler lies-to-children have in common: neither is likely to result in unintended fallouts. The child taking chemotherapy will not be able to go off to live in the sewers, befriending rats. He will not be able to administer chemo to other children to turn them into more turtles. You might have a struggle trying to get him to eat anything but pizza for a while, but, in the grand scheme of things, it’s worth it. The same applies to the Hitler lie: the people believing it can’t really do anything wrong with it. At most, they may end up getting involved into discussions where they’ll be proved wrong, denting their tender feelings. Hopefully, it will encourage them to Wiki their way into a better understanding of the subject.

I think that’s where our society fucks up: we forget that lies-to-children are only innocuous when you give them to people with a limited latitude; people who not only cannot understand anything more complicated at present, but who also have little to no chance of going off and acting upon that ”information” beyond a very narrow scope. 

Enter some of my biggest bugbears: statements about violence containing words like “always” and “all”. Violence is a large and nasty beast. Most people will, thankfully, only ever know a little bit about a small portion of it. Learning about violence second- or third-hand is useful, provided your sources are good, but it’s no substitute for experience. Violence is also something that our society increasingly abhors – and we forget how rare this attitude is, geographically and historically.

So we campaign vociferously against violence, which is great. The problem is that the vast majority of the campaigns are based on lies to children. “Rape is all about power and control.” “All we need to stop rape is <insert current buzzword>.” “Domestic violence is all about power and control.” 

Let’s take domestic violence as an example. I’m not going to dispute for a second that a lot of it IS about power and control. But there’s also the portion that is caused by other issues: brain damage, strokes, dementia, mental illness, substance abuse, developmental disorders, hypoglycemic crises, hallucinations, autism, and, last but by no means least, belonging to a (sub)culture where slapping people about is considered a perfectly valid form of communication. These cases also happen. They’re out there for everyone to see – but they are not mentioned in the current doctrine on the subject.

If you’re so inclined, you can try and make the Power&Control explanation fit every given situation: “The guy off his face on PCP was trying to control his surroundings by using force to gain power.” Problem is, you get top marks for sticking to the dogma, but your solution won’t help the problem. You can sit down any amount of violent dementia sufferers and teach them the Duluth Model[*], and it won’t stop them from hitting those around them. You’ll come up with the wrong (yet doctrinally correct) answer to that particular situation.

We’re reducing huge, complicated fields into soundbites, which is bad. We’re turning those soundbites into the Only Truth, which is worse. Instead of educating advocates, far too often we’re indoctrinating them; we’re giving them a tragically narrow point of view on the subject and teaching them that all contrasting points of view are anathema. And then we’re sending them forth to act upon the lies-to-children we’ve fed them, sending them forth on a Children’s Crusade, and expecting that to somehow make the world a better place. 

Saturday, 9 May 2015

Chickenbones. 08.05.15

I came to a horrible realisation yesterday. 

I’ve been trying to work out a comprehensive list of situations where establishing and enforcing boundaries may not work for my upcoming second booklet <<insert suspense here>>. Some ought to be obvious; for instance, if you don’t have the willingness or means to enforce consequences, your boundary-setting attempts will be useless. Things become a bit more complicated when (sub)cultures cross; for instance, what is boundary setting in your group may be a gross insult in mine, causing things to escalate, seemingly inexplicably. 

This still left me with an issue. There are people who are constantly smacking their faces into closed doors. They are routinely presented with clear, consistent boundaries, which they ignore. They end up bearing the consequences of their actions. And then they do it all over again. They seem to be stuck in a circle, repeating the same drama with different people, and never learning from it. 

Now, some of it may be down to bloody-mindedness. If you feel righteous about the way you are and the way you behave, you may be completely unwilling to change or to curtail your behaviours. Enter groups like the Westboro Baptists, who genuinely believe that they are in the right and the world is iniquitous for not seeing that. 

Some of it may be down to masochism. I know people whose hobby is getting someone to pound on them – and I’m talking literally. They get their kicks out of being mistreated, for whatever reason. Until those kicks stop, they will continue to engineer situations where mistreatment comes their way. 

However, neither of these explanations covers some of the people I routinely bump into and end up avoiding like the plague. People who don’t feel good about themselves, who do not enjoy suffering, yet keep fucking up, over and over and over again, despite getting clear and consistent instructions on how to avoid that. 

I think that’s the key issue – the consistency of it all. It got me to thinking about what the world looks like when your behaviours are just consistently too “off” for people to tolerate for any length of time. When all you see are people losing their patience with you, time and time again. When everyone eventually ends up snapping and throwing you out of their lives altogether. When this is, literally, all you know, all you’ve even known. When this becomes your “normal”. 

These people are the chicken bones in the throat of life (I’ve stolen that from Marc MacYoung, credit where it’s due). They are so incredibly, consistently infuriating that they end up believing that people being infuriated is a normal state of affairs, so they don’t read it as a warning. You can scream your brains off at them and they won’t get the message, because that’s “just what people do”. In this society, smacking people upside the head is not allowed – and, even if it was, for this sort of folks it would end up happening so routinely that it would soon become “normal”. The next step is then a shunning (firing, divorcing, avoiding, depending on the relationship). But that won’t be seen as a consequence, because it’s just “what always happens”. 

These people are apparently incapable of looking around and learning from other people’s good examples. I don’t know how they rationalise other people’s experiences to themselves. The fact that most people can get along with each other most of the time should be an indication of where “normal” lies, yet they remain oblivious. The only way I see for anyone to “fix” this would be to explain to them, clearly, that the problem isn’t with the world, but with them. You’d have to show them what’s normal and explain to them what they are doing that is stopping them from achieving it. You’d have to make them understand and accept that the common factor in all their recurring problems is them. Essentially, you’d have to pretty much disembowel their already-damaged egos. 

I don’t know about you, but I don’t fancy that job.

Tuesday, 5 May 2015

Group Therapy. 05.05.15

Someone asked me what I think of group therapy. I’m happy enough to answer the question, with a few disclaimers:
  • As per usual, I’m not a trained expert on this subject. All I’m doing is expressing my opinion. So the question I’m answering is “what do I think of group therapy?”, NOT “is group therapy good or bad?”.
  • I have had no involvement whatsoever with Alcoholic Anonymous, Narcotics Anonymous, Al-Anon, Narc-Anon, or any of the long-established programmes working around substance abuse who use group meetings. I know a handful of people who have had great success with their programmes, and another handful who struggled for various reasons. I don’t know if any of the problems I’m about to mention apply to these programmes. For all I know, the way they run their meetings is completely different from anything I have seen.
  • I have had some experience with group therapy during training and because of work. I found that they didn’t work for me, most probably because of a combination of my goals and style not matching the setting. I’m really not keen on engaging in public emotional displays. I don’t object to other people doing so, but it’s not my thing. Therefore, when talking to strangers, I tend to express concerns or problems in a very factual manner, and look for suggestions on solutions, rather than sympathy. Similarly, when people present me with a problem, I tend to want to eventually help them solve it. In the groups I had to participate in, that went down like a lead balloon. That impression stuck with me, so I'm not a particularly unbiased observer.
So, take this with several pinches of salt.

***

I have noticed several recurring problems in group therapy. They don’t occur in all therapy groups. They are not representative of an inherent flaw in the system. All of them imply the phrase “unless the group moderator watches out for this.” However, I have seen them occur often enough to make me wary.

1. Those who speak the most, often speak the most. Unless time is allocated equally, talkative members can end up taking up most of the session. The quietest members can be left with little or no time. That doesn’t do much to make them feel valued by the group.

2. People are rewarded for emotional displays, regardless of their appropriateness. If members have any kind of meltdown, they get extra attention. For some people that is incredibly embarrassing, but for some that’s a reward. Furthermore, there is a terrible reluctance to say “you’re making a mountain out of a molehill”. This can encourage an increase in emotional volatility for the purpose of attention-seeking, which isn’t a great help in everyday life.

3. There is great reluctance about calling people on their bullshit. Some people have problems. Some people are problems: they create their own problems because of their behaviours, attitudes, and lifestyle choices (please note I’m talking about stuff like “getting drunk and stealing cars and driving them into walls every weekend”, not “wanting to wear gender-inappropriate colours”. There are very valid reasons why some behaviours are not supported by society.). Because group therapy is often based around acceptance, tolerance, and anti-judgementalism, these issues are often left unmentioned. Because of this, problem people often aren’t compelled to modify their damaging behaviour, and may even receive further confirmation that their behaviour is OK.

4. Confirmation Bias is the tendency to search for, interpret, or recall information in a way that confirms one's beliefs or hypotheses. This can combine with the point above, when several problem people end up gathering and ‘proving’ to each other that they’re ok, and the world around them is screwed up. 

5. Predators/Knights. Unless participants are screened, people may join the group with less than savoury intentions. White Knights seek wounded people to ‘look after’, in order to bolster their own ego. Predators just want easy targets. Neither is helpful to have around, particularly during recovery, and both are naturally drawn to settings with a high density of suitable prey.

6. Conflicts of intentions. Unless participants are screened, they may not share the same intentions. Some may want to deal with those problems once and for all. Some may want to learn better ways to live with their problems. Some just want an opportunity to vent, or get extra attention because of their problems. Some may be sent there by the courts and have no intention whatsoever of sharing, caring, or making any changes. People working towards different goals can make difficult partners on a journey.

7. Groupthink. The desire for harmony or conformity in the group can result in dysfunctional decision-making outcomes. Conflicting ideas may be suppressed or openly attacked because they challenge the smooth running of the group, even though they would be better for the members’ welfare. Dissenters are often pilloried.

8. The numbers are bad for modelling. One of the easiest ways of picking up new behaviours is by modelling, i.e. imitating others. In a group therapy setting, most of the people present share a common problem. That suggests that they don’t yet have the skills to solve it or avoid it. When people do develop those skills, they often leave the group.

9. Seniority. In many groups, seniority is a component of status, at least because it often takes people a while to become comfortable in a new setting. In a therapy group, the most senior participants are often those who are most bogged down – otherwise they would have moved on. Although their determination may be astonishing, the fact that they are stuck ought to be a severe warning. That fact is often glossed over.

10. Crab bucket mentality. Jealousy is a natural human response to people having something we don’t, or doing better than us. We have to teach children not to be jealous, or at least not to act out their jealousy. People who fall into the crab bucket mentality haven’t learnt this lesson. Like crabs stuck in a bucket, clutching at those who are climbing out and preventing their escape, they end up undermining the results of those who are doing better than them.

11. Everyone is different. Although many of our responses and drives are very similar, we’re ultimately all individuals. The more different you are from the ‘norm’, the less you are likely to have in common with those undergoing group therapy with you. As a consequence, much of what is said and done may not work for you. Mentioning that is unlikely to be well-received, because you may be seen as challenging the group.

As I said, none of these problems HAVE to happen. It is up to the group’s moderators to keep it running smoothly and in the right direction. I think my main problem is with that direction: my definition of ‘support’ is probably unconventional. If I have a problem, I normally want to solve it. Anything that doesn’t take me towards my goal – that of not having the problem – doesn’t really get classed as ‘supportive’. For people with different goals, needs, and personalities, this may not be true.

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Inevitable Book Plug: Predators, Knights, and Crab Bucket people are discussed more extensively in Chapter 11 of my first book, A Woman's Toolkit for Recovery from Violence and Trauma, out on Amazon.co.uk and Amazon.com.

Saturday, 2 May 2015

Therapy Crab-Bucket. 02.05.15

A friend of mine died of cancer two years ago. They tried everything, but nothing worked. They started with the standard therapies -- surgery, chemotherapy, and radiation therapy. When it became obvious that it wasn't working, they tried alternative methods: organic diets, vitamin supplements, cleansing, meditation, prayer, you name it. When that didn't work either, they tried some trial therapies that not only still didn't work, but also made her terribly sick. They did everything they could for her, she fought as hard as she could, and still she died on the wrong side of 40.


This is why I want doctors to stop offering chemotherapy and radiation therapy to patients. They didn't do my friend any good, after all. I want nurses to stop encouraging cancer sufferers going through their cure, supporting them emotionally, telling them that people can get better. My friend did not get better. For her, it was nothing but a lie.

I want more. I want the government to stop their prevention campaigns. They didn't help my friend, did they? I want cancer researchers to stop publishing all those stupid, optimistic research articles. They upset me and they are useless to my friend. What is the point in research, anyway? None of the new developments can help my friend now. 

None of this helps my friend. It is useless for her and it is painful for us. So it should all stop.

No, I've not finally lost the plot. I was trying to make a point. My friend did die, but that didn't cause me to lose sight of the fact that medical care, prevention, and research still can help others. I do sometime rail against the fates: Why her? Why couldn't they make her better? I now really know that cancer wrecks the lives of those it touches and all those around them. I know that even those it doesn't kill often find themselves changed beyond their expectations, hurt in body, mind, and/or faith. And because I have seen how awful cancer can be, I want absolutely every scrap of resource to fight it to be available to all of us, so we can fight it as hard as we can. 

It would seem to me insanely selfish to prevent others from benefiting from the care that unfortunately couldn't help my friend. Which is why I absolutely can't get my head around some of the common responses to recovery after acts of violence.

I talk about this more extensively in Chapter 11 of my first book, A Woman's Toolkit for Recovery from Violence and Trauma, out on Amazon.co.uk and Amazon.com, but here is the crux of the matter:
Some fall into a crab bucket mentality – a selfish, short-sighted way of thinking best summarised as ‘Thou shalt not heal.’ Like crabs in a bucket, they claw at individuals trying to escape, pulling them back down. Stalled in their recovery, they undermine other people's recovery efforts. This could be out of jealousy – if they can’t have wellness, then nobody else should have it either – or it could be because other people’s recovery highlights their lack of progress. It could be subconscious or conscious. There are many motivations, but the attitude is the same: ‘if I can't have it, neither can you.’
What terrifies me, and one of the reasons I wanted to write the book, is that this attitude seems to be increasingly normalised. Instead of pointing out its selfishness, short-sightedness, and sheer absurdity, we all too often go along with it. We have become more scared of hurting those we can't help than invested in helping those we can.

Violence against women is an awful, awful thing. So's cancer. Violence leaves dead or broken people behind. So does cancer. Violence wrecks lives, like cancer. And nobody deserves violence, just like nobody deserves cancer. But many people don't treat violence like cancer, like a monster against which to throw every possible resource we have. Rather, they attack all resources that don't work 100% for everyone in every situation. If they tried that sort of attack against cancer cures, they'd be pilloried. 

I know I can't help everybody, and that sucks. But hopefully I can help SOMEbody. Until I can do better, that's good enough for me.